I think the current chapter of my life feels strange because multiple things are happening at the same time. Earlier this year, I resigned my assistant-role of 4-years to pursue an entirely new job at a bigger facility. I occasionally exchange messages with my former coworkers, but it feels different being outside of that circle now. I knew my time was temporary, but I didn’t know how quickly I would be moving.
Last month, I moved to another side of town, leaving my former shared apartment and started living on my own again. I haven’t had much time to process this transition, because I had to keep the momentum going, out of survival. Seeing how the arrangement changed the dynamic between me and my roommate, I’m actually happy that we remained friends. We’re still connected and we check-in now and then.
Now I’m on a side of Los Angeles that I haven’t explored very much. Every day of my first few weeks in downtown, I had to ask myself: is this the life that I prayed for? Is this everything I asked for? I want to believe that this is it, but each experience feels new and sometimes confusing. I’m learning and doing lots in and out of the office, all the time. I’m having trouble putting the pieces together and making sense out of the mess I got myself into.
I don’t remember the last time I felt like a beginner, but Starting Over seems to be a recurring theme when it comes to my career. I remember in my interviews prior to being hired, I felt so confident in my abilities. Now that I’m with the company, I’m not so sure that I’m performing correctly. I’m still working in healthcare, but my current role oversees more clients and tasks than I’m used to juggling.
In all sincerity, the last few months have almost been effortless: everything fell into place the moment I started showing up. Maybe the current timeline feels weird because I’m still fairly new to this and it’s all so messy. I know I need to give myself more grace with the learning curve and mistakes are proof that I’m trying. The point is, I keep showing up to do what I can, so I hope I’m able to keep it going.
The things that have stayed constant in my life are my relatives and loved ones. I relied heavily on my family to help me move downtown, so I hope my time spent serves me well and gives me what I need. I’m especially thankful for my boyfriend’s emotional availability to comfort me during all of this. There are many moments where I felt uncertain about the future, but sharing this whole experience helps me feel less alone as I move forward.
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She Connects That Gain
Last month, I moved to another side of town, leaving my former shared apartment and started living on my own again. I haven’t had much time to process this transition, because I had to keep the momentum going, out of survival. Seeing how the arrangement changed the dynamic between me and my roommate, I’m actually happy that we remained friends. We’re still connected and we check-in now and then.
Now I’m on a side of Los Angeles that I haven’t explored very much. Every day of my first few weeks in downtown, I had to ask myself: is this the life that I prayed for? Is this everything I asked for? I want to believe that this is it, but each experience feels new and sometimes confusing. I’m learning and doing lots in and out of the office, all the time. I’m having trouble putting the pieces together and making sense out of the mess I got myself into.
I don’t remember the last time I felt like a beginner, but Starting Over seems to be a recurring theme when it comes to my career. I remember in my interviews prior to being hired, I felt so confident in my abilities. Now that I’m with the company, I’m not so sure that I’m performing correctly. I’m still working in healthcare, but my current role oversees more clients and tasks than I’m used to juggling.
In all sincerity, the last few months have almost been effortless: everything fell into place the moment I started showing up. Maybe the current timeline feels weird because I’m still fairly new to this and it’s all so messy. I know I need to give myself more grace with the learning curve and mistakes are proof that I’m trying. The point is, I keep showing up to do what I can, so I hope I’m able to keep it going.
The things that have stayed constant in my life are my relatives and loved ones. I relied heavily on my family to help me move downtown, so I hope my time spent serves me well and gives me what I need. I’m especially thankful for my boyfriend’s emotional availability to comfort me during all of this. There are many moments where I felt uncertain about the future, but sharing this whole experience helps me feel less alone as I move forward.
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She Connects That Gain
Innocent Stages Hatch
A Chance Tests Nothing
Change is the Constant
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Change is the Constant
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